It ended up that I went to Bernice's house yesterday. Glad she's doing fine. Quite her normal self. Lol. I've been hurting a lot of people recently. Somehow I think I have been thinking too much for others. I want to be selfish but can I be? Danial asked me whether I talked to Bernice but I didn't reply his sms. Selfish, right? Yes. I didn't want to bother. I didn't want to make a bigger mess. What if I did I wrong thing again. I can't forgive myself if that happens. I've been very very oblivous to the things happening around me lately because of my sickness. I also wish to be alone, wish to keep to myself but I can't because if I do, I'll hurt others again. Why is it that nobody asks me how I really really feel? I want to understand others too, but sometimes its really hard...I did try..really..Maybe my EQ is really low.